Monday, March 29, 2010

I am NOT in control! (Thank God!!)

I recently started the "Couch to 5K" running plan. ( http://www.fromcouchto5k.com/articles/training/the-couch-to-5k-training-plan/ ) Tonight I had to walk 5 minutes, run 7 minutes, then walk another 5 minutes.  I did the same thing a few days ago and it did not bother me much!  I think I set my pace too fast tonight.  Plus, I had a rough day.  It is a testament to my new found running devotion that I was even out there, after dark, running.  I had just gotten home from a visit to our local Urgent Care clinic with my daughter.  (On the way home, stressed and discouraged, I scarfed a Dr. Pepper and some fries.)  Twice I stopped for just a second after looking at my stopwatch to see only 3 minutes and 45 seconds had gone by!  When I got to just 30 seconds left to go, I felt like I couldn't run anymore.  I dug deep and said aloud, to myself, "You can do it, Christin."  Then, I thought of something Beth Moore had said in her bible study I have been attending. (Believing God - Bible Study)  She talks about how powerful it is to speak God's word, aloud.  I began to say, "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."  Breathlessly, I chanted this out loud. As I did, my feet began to pick up the pace and before I knew it, I was sprinting!  I finally stopped at 7min, 20 sec.  I could have gone further, though!  I only stopped because my bladder told me to!  (Many of you who have carried those big babies in your womb feel my pain on that one!!)  The Holy Spirit took over my body!!!


The first realization that came from this is: I TRULY am not in control and that is a great relief!  However, I try to be in control and that just messes things up!  Look at me, trudging through life when I could be sprinting if I would just "give up the reins."  Also, the Spirit revealed to me that if He was able to cause me to sprint after being beat down and worn out, He can also overcome my issues with food.  If I will just rely on Him and let the Holy Spirit guide my every decision.  If I will just give up the control.  I don't have to stop and get a Dr. Pepper and fattening treat when I'm having a bad day!  I can, however, throw some scripture at that temptation!


I walked my last 5 minutes with a huge grin on my face and a renewed enthusiasm for life.  As I stretched, I listened to the crickets chirp and looked up at the stars in the clear sky and the trees silhouetted against the last bits of setting sun.  I felt so peaceful and blessed!  Life is good!!

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