My youngest is now fully potty trained!! Yay for me! And, of course, here's a link to a video of her pooping in the potty. She'll kill me someday for this, but it's SO hilarious!!
More Poo Poo
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Diets and Dog Poo -I just put some chips up!
So, as you know, the HcG diet was a bust. I think I'm done dieting. My new goal is to conquer the basic math of body weight: More output than input. I'm basically just trying to eat less and work off more calories. I'm not going to restrict myself of anything, but I'm going to try to make better choices. Today for lunch I had a ham and mozzarella sandwich on a whole wheat roll with hot mustard and sauerkraut. I also ate a few kettle chips. Seriously, it was maybe 5. And I had unsweetened tea to drink. And, just now as I went through the kitchen, cleaning up, I just shut the bag. I thought about grabbing a handful because that's what I would normally do, but I thought, "Nah. I don't need 'em." And, I put them away! Yay for me!!!!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Diets and Dog Poo - Hello, my name is Christin and I am a foodaholic...
There, I said it. I quit HcG totally. I quit everything again. I fell off the wagon and I pigged out and it was glorious... until after. As always. I feel like I am battling a heroin addiction. To some of you that will make sense. To some of you, you will just think I am a fat, lazy, glutton. And, that's fine. But, I'm realizing that this is a true addiction. All kidding aside. And, I'm realizing I started this at a point in time in my life when things were very scary and out of control for me. I used food to comfort myself. I used food as a temporary high when everything else in my life seemed to be falling apart. After that, as a single mom living on my own, supporting two children I had food stamps. It wasn't something I was proud of, but I had to do it. And, there was no extra money for anything! No new clothes for me, not much of anything for the kids, and not a lot left over for entertainment. It was all I could do to make ends meet. But, I had that little blue card and we could go buy whatever we wanted to eat! Food became my entertainment and one of the few things in my life I felt like I could control. Maybe I couldn't buy my kids toys or brand new fancy outfits, but I could get them whatever special cereal they wanted and we could get ice cream and frozen pizzas every Friday night! And, it just stuck with me all these years. Food is my vice. So, I am NOT dieting anymore. I am going to set small goals and I am going to conquer this just like I would a heroin addiction. And, I'm not going to beat myself up for "falling off the wagon." My goals right now are to: 1. Go to bed earlier. 2. Get up and work out every morning. 3. To try to eat smaller portions. 4. To add more whole foods to my diet like fruits and veggies. Once I master those, I will move on to add more healthy things in to my life.
The other day I heated up some left over pizza. I realized that I wasn't really hungry, I just really wanted the pizza. It took a lot, but I took the pizza out of the microwave and I threw it in the trash. Not a big deal for some people. But, for me, it was the equivalent of an alcoholic pouring a bottle of booze down the drain. And, I was proud of me! It was a small step. But, a step none-the-less!
The other day I heated up some left over pizza. I realized that I wasn't really hungry, I just really wanted the pizza. It took a lot, but I took the pizza out of the microwave and I threw it in the trash. Not a big deal for some people. But, for me, it was the equivalent of an alcoholic pouring a bottle of booze down the drain. And, I was proud of me! It was a small step. But, a step none-the-less!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Today I cleaned my doors.
I've mentioned Fly Lady in a previous post. I swear by this plan! And, with a new year here I have decided to really get on track with it and keep my house in shape! They have something called "Zone cleaning" where your home is divided in to 5 zones and for a week or so every month you concentrate on deep cleaning that area. Eventually your house gets clean and stays that way!
This week is Zone 1. That involves entry ways, porches, dining room. Today I cleaned the outside of my doors and I realized something. As a 30 year old, I have never cleaned the outside of my doors in any house I've lived in. Okay, sure, I may have hosed one off here and there and if I owned a glass door, it got cleaned. But, I went outside and I cleaned my doors and I was a little appalled! My doors were dirty and the trim was dirty and there were cobwebs.
I looked at my doors like visitors would and I was pretty embarrassed! I mean, this is the first thing people see as they walk in my house! So, if you've ever come to my house and thought that I was a lazy bum because my doors are so dirty, let me tell you that's not the case! I'm not a detail person. I'm a big picture person. So, I don't notice things like dusty doors and dirty trim and fingerprints by the doorknob. I just see the whole front porch as a big picture. So, don't worry, I will never notice the dust on your door. And, for all you that do notice those things.... I'm on it! ;-)
This week is Zone 1. That involves entry ways, porches, dining room. Today I cleaned the outside of my doors and I realized something. As a 30 year old, I have never cleaned the outside of my doors in any house I've lived in. Okay, sure, I may have hosed one off here and there and if I owned a glass door, it got cleaned. But, I went outside and I cleaned my doors and I was a little appalled! My doors were dirty and the trim was dirty and there were cobwebs.
I looked at my doors like visitors would and I was pretty embarrassed! I mean, this is the first thing people see as they walk in my house! So, if you've ever come to my house and thought that I was a lazy bum because my doors are so dirty, let me tell you that's not the case! I'm not a detail person. I'm a big picture person. So, I don't notice things like dusty doors and dirty trim and fingerprints by the doorknob. I just see the whole front porch as a big picture. So, don't worry, I will never notice the dust on your door. And, for all you that do notice those things.... I'm on it! ;-)
Diets and Dog Poo - Mostly just poo
So... I lasted four days on the diet and I caved. I caved big! I had lost almost 6 lbs, but I guess that wasn't motivation enough for the starvation to continue. This diet is not for the weak. And I am oh, so weak. So. Now what? Now I am going to continue the drops because they really are a good appetite suppressant. However, I am not going to limit myself to 500 calories a day worth of lettuce, grilled chicken and apples. It's just not doable for me! I am going to cut carbs (the bad ones) and eat less. It will be slower going than the illustrious 25 pounds I had hoped to lose in one month, but it will happen... eventually.
And, possible part of why I couldn't exist on the 500 calories is due, in part, to the poo. I've dealt with a lot lately. At the same time I was giving up on the diet, I was about to give up on this stinkin' dog!! First off, what kind of dog digs out of it's own fence and then digs in to another fence? That's ridiculous. So, we bring her inside with the back hallway as her room, and a baby gate to contain her. Bad idea.
I had realized she couldn't be let go in the house because the one time I took my eyes off her for 5 minutes my husband and I started to smell something. So, we searched. We searched then den where we were at, we searched the daycare room. We searched everywhere. Finally, I went to my son's room (which is clear across the house from where we first smelled the smell.) and there in the floor was an enormous steaming pile of dog *BLEEP* Poo doesn't cover it. This was no lap dog accident. This was a big dog "goodie." And beside it was a puddle. I was furious! And disgusted beyond belief. And, of course, since it was my idea to bring the horse dog in to our home, it was my job to clean up after it, I supposed. Thank God for the dust pan with the long handle is all I got to say!
New Years' Eve Ruth woke me up. She had escaped. Luckily, she didn't go to my son's room or any other carpeted area, she came right to me and I let her out. And, of course, she went to the neighbor's yard, found her hole, and let herself right in their yard with their dogs. How embarrassing!! We added another baby gate on top of the first one to make a wall that could not be scaled by the lab.
That night we went to my parent's house. When we returned, Ruth met us at the door. And, immediately, I smelled it. She had knocked down the bottom gate and had free rain of the house. The trash can was knocked over, there were two dirty diapers from the trash torn apart in one bedroom. And, again, in my son's room she had found some nice "grass" to use as her restroom. This time it was 3 piles. PILES, I said. And one puddle. And, let me tell you, I was ready to be done with this whole thing. I was ready to give her away!!
On top of that, I am potty training my two year old. She has mastered going number one in the potty, but not so much number two.... I've had it with poo!!!
And, possible part of why I couldn't exist on the 500 calories is due, in part, to the poo. I've dealt with a lot lately. At the same time I was giving up on the diet, I was about to give up on this stinkin' dog!! First off, what kind of dog digs out of it's own fence and then digs in to another fence? That's ridiculous. So, we bring her inside with the back hallway as her room, and a baby gate to contain her. Bad idea.
I had realized she couldn't be let go in the house because the one time I took my eyes off her for 5 minutes my husband and I started to smell something. So, we searched. We searched then den where we were at, we searched the daycare room. We searched everywhere. Finally, I went to my son's room (which is clear across the house from where we first smelled the smell.) and there in the floor was an enormous steaming pile of dog *BLEEP* Poo doesn't cover it. This was no lap dog accident. This was a big dog "goodie." And beside it was a puddle. I was furious! And disgusted beyond belief. And, of course, since it was my idea to bring the horse dog in to our home, it was my job to clean up after it, I supposed. Thank God for the dust pan with the long handle is all I got to say!
New Years' Eve Ruth woke me up. She had escaped. Luckily, she didn't go to my son's room or any other carpeted area, she came right to me and I let her out. And, of course, she went to the neighbor's yard, found her hole, and let herself right in their yard with their dogs. How embarrassing!! We added another baby gate on top of the first one to make a wall that could not be scaled by the lab.
That night we went to my parent's house. When we returned, Ruth met us at the door. And, immediately, I smelled it. She had knocked down the bottom gate and had free rain of the house. The trash can was knocked over, there were two dirty diapers from the trash torn apart in one bedroom. And, again, in my son's room she had found some nice "grass" to use as her restroom. This time it was 3 piles. PILES, I said. And one puddle. And, let me tell you, I was ready to be done with this whole thing. I was ready to give her away!!
On top of that, I am potty training my two year old. She has mastered going number one in the potty, but not so much number two.... I've had it with poo!!!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Diets and Dog Poo - Foodaholics Anonymous?
So... a recovering alcoholic would never be expected to serve cocktails to their family, right? As I melted the beautiful Velveeta and Rotel for nachos for my family it really sunk in that I am addicted to food - BIG TIME! Food is my drug. I stirred the thick, creamy, cheesy, glorious mess and I looked at the big bag of crunchy, salty tortilla chips (one of my most favorites, by-the-way!!!) and then I looked at my small piece of grilled fish and I just wanted to quit!!! And, usually I would have. I would have said to myself, "Oh, well. Just eat nachos tonight. You can start over tomorrow!" And in full binge mode (because, after all, if you are going to mess up, you might as well do it up BIG!) I would have gorged myself with nachos, had some sweet tea, and followed up with some of those evil cake balls that are still in the fridge! (Could someone finish those off already???)
I knew that I loved food. But, doing this diet is showing me just how unhealthy my relationship with food really is! I have yet to be truly, physically hungry! But, mentally is a different story. I want to eat just for the sheer joy of eating. It's ridiculous the number of times a day I think about eating! And, finally it is sinking in - even though I've known it all along on some level - I can't eat like this anymore! I'm on a diet, but I can't have the mentality that "after this" I can eat again! I can't eat popcorn every night. I can't give in to temptation every single time it jumps in front of me. I can't have a cake ball anytime I want to and drink pop several times a week. Some people can. But, obviously my body doesn't work that way! I think I should be able to indulge every so often, sure! But, I'm going to have to be careful for the rest of my life! Just like an alcoholic has to be careful! I am truly addicted to eating. So, maybe eventually, after I detox my body from the sugar and processed foods and empty carbs, I will be able to have a delicious treat now and then and not totally fall back in to my old patterns. I've got to realize that food is fuel and my body is a temple.
I stirred that creamy yellow deliciousness and I did have a little tiny taste of it. But, I did not grab the tortilla chips and dig in! I ate my fish and my salad. And I actually splurged on some broccoli with a tiny bit of that cheese on it. (You know you are on a crazy, strict diet when broccoli is cheating!!!) And, it was so hard to resist. But, I did it!!! And, God help me (literally, God is going to have to help me!!), I will beat this and I will lose this weight and feel good about myself again!
Motivation for today: I got on the scales this morning and and there was a 5 pound loss from yesterday morning! I'm sure a lot of that was water weight, but still... WOW!
I knew that I loved food. But, doing this diet is showing me just how unhealthy my relationship with food really is! I have yet to be truly, physically hungry! But, mentally is a different story. I want to eat just for the sheer joy of eating. It's ridiculous the number of times a day I think about eating! And, finally it is sinking in - even though I've known it all along on some level - I can't eat like this anymore! I'm on a diet, but I can't have the mentality that "after this" I can eat again! I can't eat popcorn every night. I can't give in to temptation every single time it jumps in front of me. I can't have a cake ball anytime I want to and drink pop several times a week. Some people can. But, obviously my body doesn't work that way! I think I should be able to indulge every so often, sure! But, I'm going to have to be careful for the rest of my life! Just like an alcoholic has to be careful! I am truly addicted to eating. So, maybe eventually, after I detox my body from the sugar and processed foods and empty carbs, I will be able to have a delicious treat now and then and not totally fall back in to my old patterns. I've got to realize that food is fuel and my body is a temple.
I stirred that creamy yellow deliciousness and I did have a little tiny taste of it. But, I did not grab the tortilla chips and dig in! I ate my fish and my salad. And I actually splurged on some broccoli with a tiny bit of that cheese on it. (You know you are on a crazy, strict diet when broccoli is cheating!!!) And, it was so hard to resist. But, I did it!!! And, God help me (literally, God is going to have to help me!!), I will beat this and I will lose this weight and feel good about myself again!
Motivation for today: I got on the scales this morning and and there was a 5 pound loss from yesterday morning! I'm sure a lot of that was water weight, but still... WOW!
Monday, December 27, 2010
Diets and Dog Poo - I Kinda Want a Cake Ball
So, I am doing the Homeopathic HcG diet via Kessinger Diagnostic Centre out of Rolla, MO. A friend of mine had really great results and told me about it. The first three days of this diet are great! You take the drops four times a day and PIG OUT for 3 days straight. It worked perfectly with Christmas! I started on Christmas Eve. The only thing was: the drops really do suppress your appetite! I actually found it hard to overeat!
Now, though, the fun is over. It is day one of the drastic diet that includes only 500 calories a day! Yes, that sounds insane, but the research kind of makes sense. (http://hcgdietinfo.com/HCG_Diet_Dr_Simeons_Manuscript.htm) Anyway, this morning was okay. I didn't eat breakfast, which is fine with me because I'm not a big breakfast eater. I had my two cups of coffee sweetened with Stevia, which I found to be pretty good! Mid-morning I had an apple and it was actually hard for me to finish the whole thing! Crazy! Because I am a notorious binger!! I tried to get through the whole thing and finally quit about 3/4 of the way through. However, as lunch approached I did get hungry. And, while I was cooking my tiny chicken breast, I opened the fridge to get the lettuce out and there they were....
German Chocolate cake balls! Mmmmm. Nice and cold, too. Do you know what a cake ball is? You bake a cake, crumble it up, mix icing with it, roll it in to balls, and dip the balls of cake/icing in to confectioners chocolate and let them harden. Oh. My. Goodness! They are good. And, I really, really wanted one!
However, I got out my lettuce instead. I had my lunch of dry (cooked it too long!) sparsely seasoned chicken breast and salad (Not with ranch and cheese and croutons. No. Not that kind of salad.) I'm not going to tell you it was awesome and I'm totally satisfied. But, I think I can face the cake balls now. After all, I am bigger than they are... MUCH, MUCH, MUCH bigger! Which is kind of the whole point of this! HA!!
Now, though, the fun is over. It is day one of the drastic diet that includes only 500 calories a day! Yes, that sounds insane, but the research kind of makes sense. (http://hcgdietinfo.com/HCG_Diet_Dr_Simeons_Manuscript.htm) Anyway, this morning was okay. I didn't eat breakfast, which is fine with me because I'm not a big breakfast eater. I had my two cups of coffee sweetened with Stevia, which I found to be pretty good! Mid-morning I had an apple and it was actually hard for me to finish the whole thing! Crazy! Because I am a notorious binger!! I tried to get through the whole thing and finally quit about 3/4 of the way through. However, as lunch approached I did get hungry. And, while I was cooking my tiny chicken breast, I opened the fridge to get the lettuce out and there they were....
German Chocolate cake balls! Mmmmm. Nice and cold, too. Do you know what a cake ball is? You bake a cake, crumble it up, mix icing with it, roll it in to balls, and dip the balls of cake/icing in to confectioners chocolate and let them harden. Oh. My. Goodness! They are good. And, I really, really wanted one!
However, I got out my lettuce instead. I had my lunch of dry (cooked it too long!) sparsely seasoned chicken breast and salad (Not with ranch and cheese and croutons. No. Not that kind of salad.) I'm not going to tell you it was awesome and I'm totally satisfied. But, I think I can face the cake balls now. After all, I am bigger than they are... MUCH, MUCH, MUCH bigger! Which is kind of the whole point of this! HA!!
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